So today was my first day back on the job I so eagerly left in October 2012. I walked over God to leave this place and found myself in a world of self-inflicted pain and torment because of it. I posted yesterday about my anxiety in a new beginning and today I thought it was appropriate that today's word would be worry. I felt alot less anxious after my bible study and post last night, but this morning as I prepared myself for a long day there was still some worry in my spirit that I could not shake. Then I finally came to the conclusion that I was completely powerless over the day's activities.
In 2010 when I first got clean I attended Narcotics Anonymous meetings. I am a firm believer and a witness that God saved me through Jesus Christ and delivered me out of a dying world; but I must say there was some relation to the 12 steps that kept me while I was there. The 3rd step was this: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. Knowing that I could just turn it over to Him was very comforting. I didn't have to carry the load alone.
While this was my go to for a while, I have come to the conclusion that worrying just ain't gonna get me anywhere. Either way it goes God's got me and the whole world in His hand. These verses below really sums it all up. Why worry if worrying ain't gonna change nothing? If the Lord takes care of the little creatures, it would be foolish of me to think that He will not take care of me...
Then Jesus said to His disciples:"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life"